It’s now nearly 2:00 AM, and I’ve been playing Batman: Arkham Origins for the last, uh, actually you don’t need to know. Just uh, 20 minutes. That’s all…

So much to do today for my CAMHS appointment tomorrow, I don’t find it helpful at all :/

Anonymous asked:

JOSH:( I dont know who else to talk to... one of my best friends just died... I wasnt there to talk to her when she was saying her goodbyes, i cant stop crying and i feel so shit:(

Right Anon listen up, this was not your fault. I’ve been on both sides of suicide, being the one attempting, and more than once, losing friends to it. I understand how you might be feeling right now. But I promise you, it will get better. It will get easier to cope with. And you’ll be able to think back, and remember her in a positive way. It’s tough but you’ll get there. And if you’re crying, then cry. Let it out. Sob your heart out, and you’ll feel better afterwards. Trust me *hug*

I know that I’m the second choice. Always have been, always will be. Where am I when you need help? Right by your side. Where are you now? Nowhere to be seen…